I can't sleep. I dont know if I have already wrote about this but it seems like I have insomnia. I could blame it on stress, or the little problems during my day that bug me, but I am not sleeping. It's making me cranky, and unable to focus.
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Keeping Up

I cannot handle keeping up with this blog. It is so difficult, particularly when I have stressful weeks and this gets forgotten. Finals are coming up and its stressing me out already. I am preparing myself for a nervous break-down.
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stress

I am slowly spending every second, of every day, in a state of stress. I can't sleep at night because I cant relax my body, I have chronic back pains because I literally carry my stress on my back and I am barely functioning emotionally because the only thing I can think about is what is due next, what I have to get in the next 24 hours. I hate stress. Maybe its my fault that I have so much stress but I can not take on the stress of knowing I am stressing myself out so I will continue to blame it on School and friends.
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Winter

Unlike most Colorado citizens, I am not a fan of Winter. In the slightest. Sure the homemade cookies, crackling fireplaces and winter snow make it a light hearted time of year, that is, for the first week. Despite the fact that I was born six days before Christmas, and my boyfriend and I will be celebrating the big one year anniversary 7 days before Christmas and 1 day before my birthday should make it a fun-filled time. I still dislike this season. Everyone seems to forget that we are hardly ever granted snow-days, even when its blizzarding outstide and my risks increase by a good percantage of getting in an accident. What do I want for Christmas? A raise in my insurance. The winter holiday becomes one of the most stressful months of my year. I have to worry about my finances because no one wants to be the giver of the shit gifts and I think that my favorite teachers all deserve something special for putting up with me and my craziness. Then I have family which deserve something extra fantastic because they love me unconditionally. which can be a struggle at times and of course friends who keep me sane during the school day and fill my weekends with adventures. Not only are my finances constatly on my mind, but so are finals. Oh yes. We all seem to forget that finals are a HUGE part of our grades, something that I am constantly studying for. Reviewing everything that I have ever learned, striving for that perfect 4.3. AND on top of everything else its just plan cold.
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burnedd

I just burnt two on my right hand and one on my left making a mug cake. I can barely type and I hope that this extreme effort I am putting in will somehow give me extra credit. I have a very low tolerance for pain and this burn is about to push me through the pain. UGH.
i need to get ice and first aid training.
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Fall Break

I think I am turning into a workaholic. There. I said it. I've spent the majority of my break scooping poo, mopping pee, and lovin' on every dog that walks through that swinging door. I have picked up shifts left and right, and doubled the hours that I initially intended to work. I have been exhausted, cranky, and I've loved every minute of it. Some teachers say they teach because of that moment when a student 'gets it.' It's a similar feeling with dogs. Some dogs pick you. They decide they love you more than anyother camp counsler. I was picked for the first time this week. Not by one dog, but two. They fought over me, peed on me to mark me as their terriotory (which I did NOT enjoy and made it very clear to them) and loved me. Those two dogs made my whole week worth it. Its hard to explain to people who do not work in this type of buisness. See, its the dogs that make all the bad things better.
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Fall

So I do not really have anything exciting to blog about but I figured I had to post something so, I am extremely relieved to have a fall break. It seems as though everytime this year my stress mounts to the point of myself becoming very sick.from strep to the flu to random faints something always happens. I am proud to say I have managed to stay healthy.