stress

I am slowly spending every second, of every day, in a state of stress. I can't sleep at night because I cant relax my body, I have chronic back pains because I literally carry my stress on my back and I am barely functioning emotionally because the only thing I can think about is what is due next, what I have to get in the next 24 hours. I hate stress. Maybe its my fault that I have so much stress but I can not take on the stress of knowing I am stressing myself out so I will continue to blame it on School and friends.
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Winter

Unlike most Colorado citizens, I am not a fan of Winter. In the slightest. Sure the homemade cookies, crackling fireplaces and winter snow make it a light hearted time of year, that is, for the first week. Despite the fact that I was born six days before Christmas, and my boyfriend and I will be celebrating the big one year anniversary 7 days before Christmas and 1 day before my birthday should make it a fun-filled time. I still dislike this season. Everyone seems to forget that we are hardly ever granted snow-days, even when its blizzarding outstide and my risks increase by a good percantage of getting in an accident. What do I want for Christmas? A raise in my insurance. The winter holiday becomes one of the most stressful months of my year. I have to worry about my finances because no one wants to be the giver of the shit gifts and I think that my favorite teachers all deserve something special for putting up with me and my craziness. Then I have family which deserve something extra fantastic because they love me unconditionally. which can be a struggle at times and of course friends who keep me sane during the school day and fill my weekends with adventures. Not only are my finances constatly on my mind, but so are finals. Oh yes. We all seem to forget that finals are a HUGE part of our grades, something that I am constantly studying for. Reviewing everything that I have ever learned, striving for that perfect 4.3. AND on top of everything else its just plan cold.
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burnedd

I just burnt two on my right hand and one on my left making a mug cake. I can barely type and I hope that this extreme effort I am putting in will somehow give me extra credit. I have a very low tolerance for pain and this burn is about to push me through the pain. UGH.
i need to get ice and first aid training.
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